We all become something we are not. Everything is meant to change but we choose not to because we don’t allow ourselves to take that chance. For love never asks why, it only speaks from the heart. For all we see are the faces of sadness, pain, hurt, rejection, tears and anger, that is something we can not avoid. We all feed into those negative feelings because we feel we are not worth it. We punish ourselves because we feel guilty within our own lives for the things we have done.

We become something we are not because of the way we were raised and how we are taught to see things, believing in what we must. We are not able to see because we don’t have the freedom to do so. We end up fighting with ourselves out of frustration. We think that’s all we have because that is what was given to us. Believing in just one way is sad because we don’t want to learn and grow and realize there is more than what we see. Our lives are filled with so much magic, beauty, and excitement from our journeys and the unknown which is something that we all need.

Finding out who we are and what we are helps us determine the person we are meant to be. Love plays a big part of it because without love within ourselves we can’t grow and learn. We never ever give ourselves a chance to begin with. We have lied to ourselves and run with it. We choose to stay with pain, hurt, misery, anger, frustration, hatred, and emptiness and we don’t allow ourselves to be set free from all those negative feelings. That haunts you because it gives you purpose to start strong in a negative way. We can’t prevent loss, pain, and hurt. No matter how much we try it is what it is, it’s part of life and growing up. All we can do is try to understand ourselves and allow ourselves to grow by finding out who we are and what we are.

Does that mean if we do that our pain and our hurt will be less? Perhaps, once we understand ourselves things become clearer to us and we look at it the way it should be looked at. When we love ourselves, doors start opening up for us. Give yourself the chance to get to know who you are and what you are worth as a person. Love gives you an understanding of the person you are meant to become. Once you feel that love for yourself you will find those answers you are seeking for!

You might ask, “why do we need love to uncover ourselves?” My answer to you is, because love brings power, strength, courage, wisdom, knowledge, truth, understanding, and compassion within you. Everything starts with you. Can you see that? Everybody looks for what they want in another human being and that’s why we get lost. We expect for them to fulfill what is missing in us. It doesn’t work that way though we all wish it did. We start losing ourselves in that person and we forget about our own value and purpose. We have allowed society to tell us what it is that we are supposed to find and in who we should look but society never teaches us that it is already in ourselves. They teach us that our answers are out there in the universe within other people but they never tell you that all your answers are within you since you entered into this world. Somewhere along the way we gave too much credit to this world and not enough to ourselves. We forgot our own values or chose not to remember them. In every generation it disappears more and more each time.

How much more do we allow ourselves to continue to play a fool in this world? We all become something we are not. We all have a purpose to love and feel peace and feel so much more. We all feel that it is impossible but it’s not. I tell you this, nothing is impossible. You just need to realize it and wake up, nothing is impossible.

You have to want it. It starts with you first and the rest will take care of itself. Learn how to reach that level and many more others so you can become the person you were meant to be. Find yourself so you can become so much happier and rich within your own happiness.

Be What You Are Meant To Be

What’s wrong with wanting to be more than what you are? The problem is not wanting to be more than what you are, the problem is whether you are doing it for the world or for yourself.


There are people who do it for the world because they are looking for approval. They don’t realize how important they are or how they give their power to the world. For they let the world rule their lives. One could disagree but you have to be completely honest with yourself to see which is hard to do because you spend your lives lying to yourselves already. You do it so well that it is hard to see the difference or recognize what is the truth and what is the lie. It’s all about money and power which you work so hard for.


You have the house, the car, and the very best because that shows how much you have reached. So the world can say you’ve done it. “You’re one of us now,” and “watch out for the haters that will come your way.” The world will say, “send them to hell. What do they know? Shit, I earned this. They are just jealous.”  


I have met all sorts of people and when I see people who live for the world I see that they are the most unhappiest people. Though they cover it with their fears and insecurities within themselves. Just because a person has everything or is rich does not mean that they don’t have their own skeletons of negativity or that they aren’t unhappy. Why do you want to be there? No one is satisfied with their lives, everyone pretends.


Whether they are rich or poor, everyone thinks it is always about money and power. They believe that the rich have it easy. Believe me when I say they don’t. I have met a great deal of them. You only see what they want you to see.


Everyone pretends because they can’t allow themselves to be who they are.  Whether you are rich or poor everyone wants the American dream. Something I don’t need in my life. You can’t take the American dream with you after you pass because it is only for the world.

What I want to take with me is what I have learned in this lifetime and the wisdom and knowledge I have gained here. What I have learned about are these things that has made me stronger, courageous, and humble. I have learned love, peace, patience, understanding, forgiveness, compassion, joy, laughter, sadness, hurt, pain, rejection, fear, death, friends, family, children, society, the world, people who have come into my life for whatever purpose and time. I will take more than what I came with.


That to me is powerful and worth more than money and what the world has given. Nothing last forever and it’s not a bad thing. It just means there is more to come in our journeys here on earth. If we allow ourselves to see this then we know that we have gained so much in our lives. It is about us noticing it, not anyone else.


We still think it is about how far we can go in this world. This world knows how to give it to you and how to take it all back. They hold the strings because we are still puppets. For they run your lives but all you see is that if you don’t have that American dream you are nothing and worth nothing. The poor get treated like they have a disease and have no chance in this world because they feel like they can’t get out of where they are.


Who’s fault is that? Theirs? Why? Because no one gives a shit about them in the first place. I see it all over the world. Everyone is about themselves. The hell with that but be aware time is ticking and we are not too far away from the poor. No one is invincible.


I want to be more than what I am and I want to continue growing and learning but not by the world. By the spiritual world for it sets you free from this world. I choose to live in peace and comfort within me. I know the world is just an illusion that has been created by man to destroy the best that is there to see and the beauty that holds so much wonder and so many secrets in the universe.


The knowledge that is not held by man but by self. We still don’t give ourselves enough credit at all. We think we are bound to this world and we are not. The world that we are bound to is the one we all came from. We just live here in borrowed time. We came here to learn, grow, and prepare but you’re not ready. Hopefully, in time you will be and when that happens your eyes will open up and your hearing will be much better to gain wisdom and knowledge. Everyones time does come one way or another. Some people will hide in religion while others will turn to cults. They will hide from the person they were might to be and hiding from the freedom of not belonging to anything in this world. Think about this if we all come from a high source whatever God you believe in, which to me doesn’t matter, but if you come from that God whether it’s a she or he, doesn’t that make you powerful if everyone says that is your father?


If you have two genius’s giving birth to a child, that child becomes a genius too.  How we choose to use our power and our gifts is up to us. Many will use it for negative. You have it in you to be who you were might to be but again that is your choice like anything in your life. You have the power to make a difference in you first before you can make it out there. Don’t let this world and society blind you from your journey and what you are meant to be.


Let’s stop hiding behind that jail cell that we build to protect ourselves and keep using as an excuse to go farther within our lives. Get out of your comfort zone and allow yourself to see what is there. Do not be afraid of learning, growing, and waking up. Face that person in the mirror and know that everything is possible if only we give ourselves that opportunity. It is always and will always be up to us.

Allow yourself to gain Knowledge and wisdom
— Guru Enlightment




1. Strength: Comes from inside of you. No one can give you that. You are the one that needs to find it. Never ever say you can’t because you could. You wouldn’t have survived this long in your life. No matter how difficult, sad, hurtful, and painful it may be you can find the strength to keep on going. For that is the way life is, either it breaks you or makes you stronger. Maybe at that moment you won’t give a shit, that is fine but just find yourself.


2. Courage: Gives you the strength to face the truth and to move forward. To realize that it takes courage to grow and learn from our lessons and to face what challenges come our way.


3. Wisdom: You carry it inside yourself for your past lifetimes are still inside of you. That’s why I always tell my students, ‘your brains are amazing.’ We carry so much wisdom but we just choose not to see it or work on it because we become lazy human beings. Society has done that to your brains and you allowed it.


4. LOVE: Love is a big word and we have lost the value of what love is. Too many of us treat it like it is candy. We taste it and enjoy and when it’s finished, it’s finished. That’s the way people deal with love. To them love means nothing and then everything. How can we love others and not love ourselves? Love is not a toy you play with and put away until you feel like playing with it again. Love knows what true love is.


5. KNOWLEDGE: Is using common sense and knowing when to use it. Knowledge is not about being intelligent. It just knowing what you know and sharing your knowledge. Everyone has knowledge it’s not about the world. It’s about how the spiritual world sees it, that is what matters. The world’s knowledge just confuses you, it gets you upset and angry that’s how war starts with everything and anything.


6. UNDERSTANDING: That we all make mistakes and that we don’t think about our consequences. Understanding that we are all different with the way we speak to the color of our bodies. To realize that we can make changes within ourselves and in our own lives. By allowing us to grow and learn and doing what is right as well as understanding that we matter.


7. HONESTY: Something that is hard for many of us to do. If I get caught I am not stupid enough to say I did it, hell no. Then my question to you is, ‘why did you do it?’ You would have been safer if you didn’t do it in the first place. Then you wouldn’t have to worry about ever lying. We have difficulties telling the truth to ourselves, friends, relationships, and anyone really. It isn’t ever easy telling someone you care about the truth.  Everyone tries to be slick and they end up looking like a fool and losing respect. The truth will set you free.


8. COMPASSION/SYMPATHY: Knowing how to feel, being there, holding that person. Being bigger than life and looking at one’s eyes. Seeing how lost they are and knowing that we can sympathize. Feeling one’s sorrow, sharing their tears, and letting them know that it’s going to be alright.


9. FORGIVENESS: This one is the hardest for many people. To forgive, how do you forgive? It’s not really about forgiving the person it’s about forgiving yourself. It’s about facing that person, looking into their eyes and taking back your power. You do this by saying, ‘I forgive you not for what you did to me but for what you took away from me. That is my power so I need it back and I must let go so that I could build myself up more powerful than what I was before.’


10. KINDNESS: To be helpful to those in need and to care for one another. When I hear people say the Higher Power will bless you when you help or our kind to others it’s nonsense. We are all already blessed with the things that were given to us when we entered this earth. When we choose to be kind and helpful to others we do it because it is the right thing to do. Your heart tells you how good it feels because it is full of love. 


11. HAPPINESS: You all have happiness inside of yourselves but many prefer using sadness. Happiness is always there but we choose not to see it. Many feel they don’t deserve to be happy because of the way they live their lives or the bad experiences they’ve had with their dysfunctional families. Many feel worthless, don’t feel loved or cared for. Happiness is there but it’s up to you to grab it. MAKE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS! GO TO THE LIGHT, DON’T STAY IN THE DARK.


We all have choices and always will. That’s what makes our journey joyful or sad. When we use words that should be respected and honored we make them dirty and disgusting. Every word can be turned into a positive one. Everything we do always has limits because there are people that will take advantage. In time you will know who they are. Just stay away from people like that even if they are family until they get it, hopefully. Not everyone is the same and we can’t close the doors because of ignorant people either.

Freedom is within you
— Guru Enlightment


Have you ever felt that there are times where things just don’t work out for you? No matter how much you try you just keep getting frustrated with yourself and the situation. Sometimes we have to realize that it just wasn’t meant to be. No matter how hard we try we must learn to let it go even though it isn’t easy. But the more you stay stuck there, the more you lose yourself. Why would you do that to yourself? How much is it worth? Enough to allow yourself to become nothing? Letting go of anything is hard but that is what life gives us and we all pay the price one way or another. It happens to everyone in the world. No one is left behind.


We think we are the only ones that go through pain, sorrow, death, break-ups, failures, mental and physical abuse, feelings within ourselves of worthlessness, low self-esteem, and no confidence. I don’t care how big you are in the world you know that there are moments you need to check in for you are more lost than anyone in the world.


Even those that feel they are the little people go through this. We all need to find ourselves again and start looking within. This is something no one wants to do for they think they know it all or they just don’t care. Nothing is wrong with them but they are hard-headed. They allow pride and ego to get in the way and listen to people who need help themselves. Many of the people in this world suffer from some kind of illness especially anxiety and depression. This is what our youth has to look forward to.


I have more young students that suffer from anxiety and depress than adults. What about the children that are being born every second? What do they have to look forward to? Some people might say, ‘hey I just worry about my own, let their parents worry about their own.’ But they are our children and I want the best for their future. However, as I see it they are going to get the short end of the stick. Everyone is so selfish and greedy; it’s always about you. What a fucked up world we live in, right? 


Be aware for what we put in is what we get back, remember that. I see kids selling drugs, just hanging out on the streets, and dropping out of school. I see these young girls that get pregnant, use drugs, and haven’t had a chance to enjoy their lives. It’s scary seeing children raise children and hanging out on the streets with their little ones. 


Yes, we could ask, ‘where are the parents?’ But some of these parents are working two jobs just to provide shelter, food, and clothing. Children need more than just that. They need love, understanding, compassion, support, and someone to listen to them. This is something money cannot buy. We need to take a look at our children and see what they are doing. That doesn’t take much time to do. Don’t allow them to destroy themselves. No one says it’s easy for those parents that try but their child is already involved in the negative and likes being there.


They choose to stay there no matter what you do or say. But lets help those that have the possibility of getting out. I am not saying give up on your children just do the best you can. Those that choose to stay in the negative will end up dead or in jail. Or hopefully they’ll gain knowledge and wisdom while they’re locked up. We could only hope and pray that before it’s too late they open their eyes.


I see how women have lost the meaning of being a mother and allowed the world to ruin their lives. It’s hard enough being in a man’s world but what we choose not to see is that we don’t need to be in a man’s world. Why would we want to? Look at what they have done to the world. They have created chaos, killed children, women, and raped their country. I don’t want to be involved in that world at all. Look at what they are doing to our planet and then they blame us. You see I have enough of a hard time being a person, woman, mother, doctor, therapist, cleaning lady, and counselor. The extra jobs that come with it is a hand full. The majority of us stay raising our children and we end up being both parents, come on now.


We as women are very powerful and strong we just don’t give ourselves enough credit. Why is that? You allowed a bunch of women to tell you that you can be in a man’s world. Many forgot to realize that they were powerful from the beginning and now they have lost themselves in that man’s world. The only difference is that women are now very aggressive but that is another story.


Everyday in life we make decisions and we hope that the one we choose is the right one. When we have our eyes open and allow ourselves to see the truth then and only then can we set ourselves free from what holds us back. I see how celebrity kids are and believe me when I say that it’s not just our children but all children. Every child is trying to find their own place in this world for everyone wants to belong.


Pride and ego keeps parents from noticing their children yelling out for help. As simple as children that are born with learning disabilities and the parents won’t acknowledge it because it means they have a stupid child. Or they are too afraid and ashamed to admit there is a problem. Those reasons don’t make sense to me at all but it happens, that’s reality. In the end these children suffer the consequences.


There are so many things parents don’t allow themselves to see because it just scares them. But we need to open our eyes so that we are able to help our children.  As a parent I look at my children and hope I am doing the best I can. For there will be lots of struggles especially when they hit that great age, puberty. I call it change of life. Only time will tell the results. I have three children that I have already raised and they turned out great. Now I have three other children so those results will come later in life. Nothing is guaranteed. I believe in trying and never ever giving up, no matter what.


I also believe in this: everything must change for nothing stays the same. Everyone changes, the young becomes the old. For no one goes unchanged. The only thing that stays the same is the sunlight, rain, clouds, spring, and death. Everything is possible but it’s up to you to make it happen. 

I want to be more than what I am today
— Guru Enlightment