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I have been rich, I have been poor, I have been blinded and I have seen. I have traveled the wonders of the world and seen pain and destruction. I have seen the hurt on people’s faces. I have seen people losing their hope; they have given up on themselves. I’ve seen their struggles, their conflicts. I have heard your prayers and I have given you answers but your inner self is so far from the light that you cannot hear the words; you cannot see the words, which is so simple to see, written in different forms. Prayers are answered in many different forms; by a stranger, music, a book, a newspaper, a play, a movie, a child, or within yourselves. You’re too much into that world that you cannot see the riches within you. You all think that the riches you need is out there in that world, how foolish are you? You don’t believe in yourself, but you believe in everything else, like really? You want to believe in so many things that you forget about the most important person, which is you. You see, we forget what we teach our children and what was taught to us. I have nothing to do with that, but you do.

As a parent, we want the best for our children.

We want them to believe in themselves.

We want them to know that they are special.

We want them to know that everything and anything is possible.

We want them to know that they should love themselves.

We want them to know that they have a purpose here.

We want them to be kind, caring, compassionate, understanding and know how to forgive.

We want them to learn that they are not better than anyone except themselves. You’re not here to be in competition unless it is with yourself.

You want your child to grow and never be afraid to stand up on their own for what they believe in within themselves.

You want your child to be honest and strong.

You want your children to never be greedy or controlling.

You want your child to know that it’s not their place to control someone or try to change someone else because that is not their job.

You want your child to follow their journey.

You want your child to follow their dream.

You want your child to be happy and in peace.

You want your child to find a good husband or wife.

It doesn’t take away from what you believe in. When you allow what you believe to take control of your life and you let everyone know that your beliefs come first, that is unacceptable for that is not what I taught all of my children. I taught you to believe in yourself first because without that you cannot believe in me. If you feel you can believe in me without putting yourself first, then you’re going to be very disappointed when the time comes. This is the time to show me that you are worthy of my love and my respect; just as I have earned that from my father by following my journey within me first. In time, everything will connect. For soon I will become your student and you will become my teacher as you will share your journeys with me. We are taught to put everyone first but when you put yourself last you lose the person you were meant to be in the first place and that is when your life becomes hectic and complicated.

We are taught that putting ourselves first is selfish, and then people make you feel guilty for thinking about yourself. The word “selfish” comes with a negative meaning because there are people who don’t care or feel compassion for others and that is why people often say, “You shouldn’t be selfish.” When I say, “Think about yourself,” I mean get to learn about yourself and deal with your issues; become the person you should have been. When you don’t allow yourself to be who you were meant to be you tend to have many regrets later in life because you didn’t follow your journey. Many people will end up pushing their failed journeys on their children, so that they can fulfill the journey they didn’t complete within their children but that doesn’t work that way. Everyone should follow their own path especially if it doesn’t bring any negativity that ends up destroying their journeys or affecting others in their journey.

Everyone hides from life and they choose to think that by hiding this will give you the answer you’re looking for, but it doesn’t. Whatever superior being you believe in, believe me when I say to you that when you entered this earth, I’ve given you the tools to use so that it can help you with your life on earth with the exception of killers, rapists, and those that abuse children and human beings. I have seen this treatment all over the world with people and children. When you fail my children, you fail me. Those that are hurting and starving my children and humankind will soon be prisoners and soon will feel my wrath.

You didn’t allow yourselves to see the wonders and the magic that has been given to you. You don’t believe enough in yourselves to make a difference. I have walked the world and seen people kneel and ask me for mercy, yet no one has given it to you on earth. They look upon me, and say, “You have forgotten me,” but I have not forgotten you, you have forgotten yourself. You have forgotten your values, your purpose. No one said that the journeys you all chose to follow would be easy especially when dealing with the pain and tribulations that come with it.

I have had many tribulations and still chose my journey. I have continued my journey till the end of my time. That is what I chose and because of my journey I became better with having compassion towards all my children in the world. You should find your path and if in time it doesn’t feel right then go and continue looking until you find where you belong. Just make sure it brings you peace and comfort and that it teaches you a lot. Everyone, sooner or later, finds their way if they choose too.

Even if people might not understand at the moment, everyone needs to find themselves and hopefully they do so for the positive reasons. I believe that we are all different and because of that, everyone is special and powerful. We all want the same things, no matter what color we are or how different we are. We all want to feel happiness, we want to have good health, we want love and most of all, we want peace. When people go looking for answers, some will overdo it and others will lose their mind in the midst of things, which is sad.

Some people will overreact on their beliefs and force others to believe in the same things by pushing them, which I don’t agree with. There will be other people that are looking to belong somewhere and there are others that will get into things out of fear; while other people will try to find answers in everything and anything. There is not a person that is not looking for answers.

Sometimes we don’t know when enough is enough. People run from the reality of life because of their traumatic experiences. Some of these people will become drugs addicts or alcoholics and some will destroy their lives. Some people will commit suicide because of their traumas. Unfortunately, it’s not easy to say, “Get it together.” For many people it isn’t that easy to do, not because they are weak, but because of who they’ve become. Many of you won’t be able to understand it. It’s important for us to know who we are. You must learn to be who you are and what you are. You ask, “Why?” It is because of the journey that was given to you as you entered this earth, by not learning who you are, the person that you were meant to be got lost along the way. This also applies to the people who are rich; never ever think that, that world is better than yours, don’t go there.

You look up to the sky and I hear you as you ask, “Why me?” Well, why not you? I went through my tribulations and I never asked, “Why me?” We are all special but that doesn’t mean we’re not going to go through issues. You all have the tools you need to succeed. I gave them to you so that you could choose to do good or bad; that is your choice. I taught you to find your own answers within, but you have forgotten because of society and because you allowed it. You have forgotten that everything you’ve ever needed has been and will continue to be inside of you. We look out there for our solutions and never within. I did not create suffering, tribulations, or traumas. I didn’t create sickness or death.

I didn’t create pedophiles, trafficking, or starvation. Humankind created all of this because of their greed, power, and selfishness. You chose to look upon and follow that greed and power. I’ve given you the answers that you’ve been looking for all this time, but you choose not to hear it within. Don’t look upon me as though I am the bad one. Look upon humankind and see how far they have gone with all the hatred they have created and all the devastations that have happened to the people on earth. Again, I didn’t create this world. What I created was love, compassion, peace, joy, laughter, kindness, and so much more.

Do not compare me or judge me for none of you really know who I am. Don’t go by what you read; that is just a fairytale. I gave you choices to make. Wake up and see and feel what’s inside of you. Start judging yourself and not others. Take a good look at yourself and find out why you choose the life you live in. Don’t blame me for your choices. Everyone needs to take responsibility for their own actions and what they have created.

Children shouldn’t be suffering or starving at this point in time. You support what doesn’t matter and you can’t feed my children; it’s a shame how humankind has allowed this. They have also destroyed the land and the air that was with heart but was taken away because of greed and power. My children shouldn’t be in pain or in anguish or in any kind of sickness. Children are dying and part of it is due to the fact that you have lost your humanity. Then you look upon me to say it’s my fault and I’m not the one that’s there, you are. I have not failed you; you have failed yourself. I have given you strength, courage, confidence, wisdom, knowledge, power, and answers so that you may go through life knowing that no matter what comes your way, you’ll be able to handle it.

When people say that I’ll only give you as much as you can handle, that is not true. You’re the one that gives that to yourself because you’re the only one that knows how much you can handle; don’t be a fool. I repeat myself again, I gave you all the tools you needed before you came down; how you chose to use it is up to you. I gave you mercy when I saw you suffering and when you were near death, I gave you mercy and took you, but I am not the one that took your life. When I see you in misery, I give you mercy. When you make horrible mistakes, I give you mercy. When you asked for forgiveness, I say to you, “You must forgive yourself.” You have the tendency to blame everyone because you’re not able to deal with the truth. When the time comes, I would judge you and only you. Do not use the excuse that I was never here for you. I have sent you help but you chose not to hear your spirits.

I’ve given you a lot, but you have not done anything with it because you believe in society. You don’t believe in the voice you hear. Are there negative voices out there? Yes, but there’s also positive voice and you’re old enough to know the difference.

No one has seen me, but you have seen others and you’ve seen things. The universe is so big that there are wonders that no one can ever imagine. I have shown you false leaders and you will continue to see and hear false people. Remember, I am everything and anything. I am never one thing, never assume. Take those blinders off your eyes and those plugs out of your ears and allow yourself to hear and see. Society confused you for that is their purpose. You are all gifted and you are all genius, remember that. You chose to come to earth; that was your choice and I agreed upon it. Don’t believe in what you hear; believe in what you see. Don’t allow anyone to see it for you; see it for yourself. I have tried in every way for you to hear your spirits, but you still haven’t woken up. I am only one thing, but I am all. I travel in many forms; I come and go. People give me different names. They all have different ways of how they cherish me. You still don’t get it though. I don’t want to be cherished; I want you to cherish yourself as you follow your journey just as I have. I didn’t give anyone rules; I gave knowledge and wisdom. For rules come from mankind. We all lose our way but when you ask me to show you the way, I will. It is up to you to find the rest of the way and it doesn’t mean it’s going to happen right away either so chill; just be prepared for when it does happen. It’s up to you, never me.

I am not here to walk you along the way. I show you the door and you do the rest; that is something you need to do on your own because that is the path you chose to take. There will be a time when you need me and there will be times that you don’t and that is ok. It’s not that different than when you needed your parents and they were there for you. I gave you the brain to think, not to abuse or hurt humanity. I gave you a heart to feel sorrow, to have compassion, to understand, to feel the love that was given to you by me, so that you may share it with those around you. I gave you tools to use for positive, not for negative. Those who use it for the wrong reasons will know the pain they have caused when we come face to face for no one gets away with anything here on earth and in my world.

Share the beauty of the words and the freedom to be. My name is (I). YOU ALL HAVE GIVEN ME MANY NAMES, WHICH WAS A WASTE FOR ALL IT DID WAS DIVIDE EVERYONE IN THE WORLD; THAT WASN’T MY PURPOSE. IT WAS ABOUT UNITING EACH OTHER. YOU HAVE LOST SIGHT OF MY PURPOSE AND MY JOURNEY THAT I FOLLOWED.

You listen to those that have their own agenda, but you never allow yourself to hear the voice within you. You read those books that tell my stories but that is not my story; that is a story that was created for their own purposes. Know this: I AM LOVE, I AM COMPASSION, I AM FREEDOM, I AM JOY, I AM LAUGHTER, I AM PEACE, I AM YOU, AND YOU ARE ME. NO MORE, NO LESS. FORGIVENESS DOESN’T ONLY COME FROM ME, BUT IT ALSO COMES FROM YOU. FOR I AM NOT HELL OR FEAR; THAT COMES FROM THE BOOKS YOU READ. YOUR JOB AS A PARENT IS TO MAKE SURE YOU MAKE THAT CHILD FEEL SAFE AND GIVE THEM JOY, LOVE, AND LAUGHTER. WHY AM I DIFFERENT IN YOUR EYES? ESPECIALLY WHEN I GIVE YOU THE SAME THINGS YOU GIVE TO YOUR CHILD. I AM ALSO A FATHER. PLEASE THINK. I am not cruel or hard. I am not a hypocrite. I don’t say one thing and do another, as it has been written. I am fair. I am generous, I am compassionate, I am forgiveness, I am peace, I am love, I am the light that shines through you.

When you choose to come to me, come to me out of love, not fear for that is not love. You must learn how to live, how to fly as I did before I left earth. I sent you here to learn and grow, to become human, and to go through whatever small or big situations you must go through to grow and learn. That is your purpose and to enjoy live, to laugh, to love and so much more. You will go through your ups and downs; that is part of life. Make your life count, do not waste it.

I was not perfect; I was human like you and I have gifts just as you do. Why do you think I can understand your pain, your sorrow, your tears, your anguish, your confusion, your anger, your hatred, your sadness, your betrayal, your sense of loss, and your conflicting feelings? I lived as a human; why is that so hard to understand? You have created me in a way which I am not. I am not a God; I have chosen to be human just like you. We left our wings behind to become human. We all came to become greater within ourselves for our journey has lessons that will take us further. You have allowed yourself to learn and grow within your journey, to be the best you can be. I will always be here to help, but you will end up doing most of the work. For when you ask for help, I will give you the courage and strength that you may need to accomplish the path you are supposed to fulfill. You’re the one that makes the miracles with me; it’s never me alone. We all work together.

Someday, the earth must cleanse itself as it has done many centuries ago; that has nothing to do with me. It has to do with how the land is treated because mother nature has her own agenda. Everything is not about me for there is more here than just me. Humankind has done a lot of damage to the earth. I don’t create devastations; I created love and peace. Devastations occur because no one wants to listen to the land and the skies for all will suffer because of humankind’s greed and power. You must learn how to think for yourself. I have given you everything you needed so now choose what you really need.

For I have spoken.

You have let society live for you; you have let books lead you for it was your choice, chosen all along. Continue your journey and fulfill that journey as much as you can. Don’t be afraid of me or fear me, FOR I AM LOVE!!

MANY HAVE GIVEN ME SO MANY NAMES AND I AM JUST ONE, THAT’S ALL. I AM (I).

NO ONE NEEDS TO BELIEVE. JUST BELIEVE IN YOU AND SEE. DON’T LET ILLUSIONS TAKE OVER, NOT EVEN THE WORDS OF SOCIETY!!!

I AM I, AS YOU ARE I.

IT WILL CATCH UP!

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What is your truth? Do we hear the truth? Or do you wait to see the truth in what we’re dealing with? We go around trying to find the truth and many of us choose not to care about the truth. Everyone is looking for those answers. Many people are afraid of knowing the truth for it is not something anybody wants to hear or face in their lives. So, then, what is the truth? Who do we really believe in? Everything sounds convincing in the moment. People can easily convince you that the color you see is not the actual color shown and they’ll make you feel stupid about it. You’ll look at them and think, “Wow! This person knows what they are saying.” Then, before you know it, you’re involved in something you shouldn’t be all because you suddenly became afraid or confused.

You’re not taking responsibility for what you feel. Why do you do that? Because you get afraid and in that moment you need help to deal with what you’re going through. That’s the moment when you find out that you can’t do it on your own. So, you find yourself going anywhere to get the help you need and to find answers about why you feel the way you do. Yet, you don’t know if these places are where you need to truly be. You don’t question it; you just need to stop feeling the way you do because it’s making you feel uncomfortable and you never ever felt like this before, nor do you understand it. This is when the danger starts. I see people coming through my door desperate to find answers and they are willing to do anything to find them because they can’t deal with what they’re feeling; it makes them feel less normal. They think they are going crazy or losing their mind but it’s just a conflict they are going through and it is not easy at all. Many people can’t understand it unless they’re going through it themselves.

What I want you to understand is that everyone will eventually go through situations like this for everything catches up with us. Just know this, you are not going crazy but this is something that you need to deal with and work through. And yes, some people might need more help than others. Some people will learn that this is a stepping stone while others will let their pride and ego get in the way of sharing how they feel. They won’t tell others that they are going through some changes and that they don’t know how to explain it but it will pass. Some people will find it difficult to go through and that’s when they go looking for help. Some of these people will end up in religion while others will see a therapist or psychiatrist. Some people might drink more than ever while others will take drugs and as sad as it may be there are some that will commit suicide. Unfortunately, some things will hit harder than others but understand that no matter what, you’re always in control, your mind is powerful, and you can make it stronger by realizing that this miserable feeling will eventually pass; you just need to believe that.

We all need to face our mistakes and the things we thought we got away with. I tell my students, “This will pass. You just need to go and face all of these things.” I help them to understand that as fucked up as it may be, this is a part of life but they need to be strong and try not to give in to those feelings. Sadly, this is why many people end up going through depression and anxiety. However, try to understand that you will get better by asking for help, just be aware of where that help is coming from. Question it first and know why you are there; just because you might feel desperate doesn’t mean you lost the rest of your brain. Take a deep breath and see what you need to do and where you need to go. We end up in places we don’t need to be in because of the crisis we are going through. We don’t need to make it worse for ourselves either. Please think and give yourself a chance.

All of these things we are going through is a growing process and it allows you to ask questions such as: Where do I belong? Who am I and what am I? What has my life meant for me? What have I done in my life? Why did I become this way? How did I end up here? Was it worth it? Why was I an asshole? Why was I cruel to people? Why did I carry anger? Why was I always mad? Why did I marry this person? Why did I spend my money foolishly? Why did I stay in this job that I was so miserable in? What the fuck is wrong with me? Why am I feeling this way? When did this shit start? Why now? I can’t breathe. I need to get out of here. I can’t deal with these people anymore. Things start bothering you and everyone looks at you like you’re going crazy. You don’t want people to always ask, “What the hell is wrong with you?” Or “Shit! Are you going crazy?” Who needs to hear that shit when you’re going through these changes?

You might think, “I understand this. Isn’t this what I went through in my 20s or 30s so why am I going through it again?” However, what you don’t realize is that you learned a great deal and have done many things which you never took the time to think over. You see, we all need answers for all the things we’ve gone through, whether good or bad, but there are always answers. Many people just go on living their lives and feel that they don’t need to answer to anyone but we do; we need to answer to ourselves.

Life has always had a hidden agenda; it will surprise and shock you. So, who do we believe in? Believe in yourself first because you’re the one going through these changes. Second, find a place you can trust. Don’t join anything because you are afraid and you want answers as fast as possible. Don’t convince yourself you’re weak because you’re not; this is just a passing journey that we all go through. I have students in different ages going through it. There is always a relief over that tunnel; I guarantee you. Don’t allow it to take you away from your journey. Again, this is part of growing up. In life everyone gets hit one way or another. You see, we all need to look at ourselves whether we want to or not. A la buena o a la mala; that is your choice.

Parents don’t share these experiences because they don’t understand it themselves and they probably believe that you won’t go through these things. Everyone’s experience is different from the way in which they are born to how they chose to live their life but we all have a story to tell. Sometimes that’s all we need so that we may share and really let go and forgive those that have hurt us and so much more. I guarantee you, it will catch up.

INSPIRATION

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We all need to be inspired but we forget that the ones we need inspiration from is ourselves. We so easily accept it from others when we need to do it for ourselves first because when others do it for us we are not ready to accept that help. We feel as though we are entitled to it when we are not. Why? What is the purpose of someone giving you inspiration when you are not ready, or you feel you are not worthy to receive it? It is a waste of their time and yours. It starts with us first; no one is entitled to anything unless we have earned it on our own than we are entitled. Don’t expect people to be there for you; it’s not their job to be there. It is your job to be there for yourself and get what you need so that you may grow. There are things in life that you will face on your own and there will be times when people will be there for you but if it's not meant to be then it is what it is. We expect so much from others and not enough from ourselves; that is sad. Why is it sad? Because it shows that you don’t think you're enough to make it happen on your own. Everything starts with you first; you’re the one that needs to take that first step. Before opening that door, be honest enough with yourself to understand that others might or might not be there and that is ok because it is right for you to take that journey on your own; there is a purpose for it. Life can be cruel sometimes and that’s why you need to be strong and learn how to depend on yourself first; remember, everything starts with you first. No one needs to accept you, but you. We put so much pressure on others and expect them to have the answers for us, but they also need to find answers for themselves just like we do. We all come with answers, it's just that we’ve never ever been taught to believe that but it’s true. You have your own answers within you. You don’t think you’re a genius and you don’t realize what you came down with. We carry so much baggage within us and we bring it into our relationships. We think that it will all get fixed but it’s not. We expect our partners to find our answers for that baggage we carry but that is not their job, that is yours to figure it out long before you even put yourself in a relationship. Remember, inspiration always starts with you first and no one else. You’re the one that knows what you need or don’t need. Stop wasting your time and go do what you need to do. Remember, don’t go to the negative because that is not what I mean; follow the positive journey. No one says it’s going to be easy but what is easy? Right?

BELIEVE THAT YOU HAVE A PURPOSE AND THAT PURPOSE IS NOT TO BE MISERABLE BUT TO BE HAPPY AND BE EXCITED TO FOLLOW YOUR JOURNEY. ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS TO FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU NEED FOR YOURSELF.

Learn about who and what you are! I always tell everyone, especially my students, “You are all geniuses, but you choose not to believe because of what society teaches you.” No matter what higher source you came from or believe in remember that, that higher source is powerful, and we all come from there which means we are all powerful as well and we carry so much knowledge and wisdom within us. We are never as powerful as the higher source, but we do carry some of that within us; these are the tools that were given to us so that we may follow our journeys. How you use it is up to you. You could use it for positive as well as negative; that is your choice. We all can see how the corporations and the government inspire us in a very negative way. We can also see it with many other negative people in this country and around the world. Sadly, many people choose not to see this.

REMEMBER, INSPIRATION STARTS WITH YOU!!! BE THE WINNER YOU ARE MEANT TO BE!!

Lose or Find

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How does one express their love? What has happened to love? Where are the loves stories and where has it gone? I look around and notice that the romance has also disappeared. I close my eyes and look for the picture in my mind, wondering for the picture of love. It’s gone but I can’t accept that it has disappeared. Maybe it is hiding from us or it has worn itself out. I must find it; I refuse to accept that it no longer exists.

Where is the love of loves? Why can’t we see it or feel it? Where has the meaning of love gone? Have we become so blinded and fooled ourselves with the game of love by saying that it is a convenience? We have lowered ourselves to the emptiness and followed the illusion that has covered our eyes. We have no idea about love. We catch bits and pieces of what was once love and we realize that what we felt was never true love. You just get the sense of it as you take a breath and you know that it has been lost by you for you choose to hide. You live life like everyone else and think that love is about power, greed, control, beauty, material, the unbeliever, and the user. What have our parents taught us about love? It has been lost for so long that only a few have seen it, felt it, and made sense of it. They acknowledge what the true meaning of love is and the sacrifices one makes for it.

You have allowed love to slip away, for you have loved so many times but never felt true love within you. Instead, you play games and gamble with love but that was never real love. You were not willing to learn about that love so you closed your eyes for other things that had nothing to do with love. How sad are you? WAKE UP and surround yourself with the love that matters.

You held me to the wonders of the world, never ever letting go while realizing that the love you offered is the unconditional love of freedom. The smile you have shown me and the warmth I have felt has taught me that no matter where I go your love will always keep me in peace. The warmth of your touch will remind me of the joy of feeling you within me. That love won’t ever die but continue to live until we meet again, my love.

Wings

 My Wings  You gave me wings and stood by me no matter what I went through. You always held me up and gave me strength and courage even when I didn’t see it.   You gave me wings to fly even though I didn’t use them. You have always been there for me but I chose to walk away. You always held me up while I held myself down for I didn’t want to see what was there.  I have chosen to fly; not knowing which direction to go but wanting to find my way. You have opened doors for me but I choose not to walk through them.   You’ve given me wings to fly and search for what is out there and yet I close my eyes to what has been in front of me. All this time I have been searching but I have not been able to see a thing.  I surrendered myself to myself. I had dreams but instead, I put those away for others because they mattered more than me. I surrounded myself with things that didn’t concern me and it just brought joy to others but not to me. I was using my wings, strength, and courage for them without realizing how unkind I was with myself.       The wings were mine but I gave it to everyone, when everyone already had their own wings to fly; and their own strength and courage. I allowed everyone to take away my wings, courage, and my strength.   I surrender myself and continue to surrender myself to my wings so that I am able to fly and see the truth within me. I will use the strength and courage to open new doors and find the one person that I was supposed to be in the first place. Today, I set myself free from all of those which I have allowed to take me away from myself. I say to you all, “Go find your own wings and fly in the direction you need to. You can do it with the same things I came with.”  There is a time when we need to say, “enough is enough.” I have seen enough tears and pain that comes with so much hatred. I have seen the darkness and now I want to see the light. Now, it's time to fulfill my life with my dreams, whether they are short or long. I am going to use my wings, my courage, and my strength so that I can complete what I was meant to.    I know words can be wasted but no more. I will take my wings and fly as far as I can. I know life will hit me but I promise when I feel helpless I will use what was given to me so that I may be able to pick myself up again for life will continue going on. You allow me to fly upon the sky and see the beauty that I hold within myself while showing me the knowledge and wisdom I carried all this time but was unable to see.  I will fly with my wings and go as far as I allow myself to go; this time following my own dreams.

My Wings

You gave me wings and stood by me no matter what I went through. You always held me up and gave me strength and courage even when I didn’t see it.
 
You gave me wings to fly even though I didn’t use them. You have always been there for me but I chose to walk away. You always held me up while I held myself down for I didn’t want to see what was there.

I have chosen to fly; not knowing which direction to go but wanting to find my way. You have opened doors for me but I choose not to walk through them.
 
You’ve given me wings to fly and search for what is out there and yet I close my eyes to what has been in front of me. All this time I have been searching but I have not been able to see a thing.

I surrendered myself to myself. I had dreams but instead, I put those away for others because they mattered more than me. I surrounded myself with things that didn’t concern me and it just brought joy to others but not to me. I was using my wings, strength, and courage for them without realizing how unkind I was with myself.    
 
The wings were mine but I gave it to everyone, when everyone already had their own wings to fly; and their own strength and courage. I allowed everyone to take away my wings, courage, and my strength.
 
I surrender myself and continue to surrender myself to my wings so that I am able to fly and see the truth within me. I will use the strength and courage to open new doors and find the one person that I was supposed to be in the first place. Today, I set myself free from all of those which I have allowed to take me away from myself. I say to you all, “Go find your own wings and fly in the direction you need to. You can do it with the same things I came with.”

There is a time when we need to say, “enough is enough.” I have seen enough tears and pain that comes with so much hatred. I have seen the darkness and now I want to see the light. Now, it's time to fulfill my life with my dreams, whether they are short or long. I am going to use my wings, my courage, and my strength so that I can complete what I was meant to. 
 
I know words can be wasted but no more. I will take my wings and fly as far as I can. I know life will hit me but I promise when I feel helpless I will use what was given to me so that I may be able to pick myself up again for life will continue going on. You allow me to fly upon the sky and see the beauty that I hold within myself while showing me the knowledge and wisdom I carried all this time but was unable to see.

I will fly with my wings and go as far as I allow myself to go; this time following my own dreams.

Accident

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Life has a way of sending things your way that you may not be prepared to handle. Who says we can’t handle it? We don’t know how we are going to deal with things until it happens. We always have choices and it’s always up to us. Do we live in guilt and depression and just give up? Or do we decide to live on and make a difference? It’s really up to you. Tragedy occurs, and we fall apart because we don’t know how we are going to deal with it or how to go through the devastation. 

We blame ourselves for this accident and I get it, because that is the first thing we do as human beings. You take the guilt because you are a caring human being. It wasn’t your fault; it was an accident and just that. Though it is hard on you, you need time to make peace with yourself and learn how to forgive yourself. They are no words in this moment that is going to make it easier for you. You’re the only one that can do that by allowing yourself to feel what you need to feel and cry if you need to. Allow yourself to feel angry and yell if you need to. Allow yourself to look in the mirror and let it all out. Don’t let your frustration spill over on the people you love; don’t attack them because that is not acceptable.

Go see someone you can talk to about what you are feeling. Don’t let ego or pride get in the way of your ability to get help. Don’t be afraid of the unknown; it’s just a new door you are going through. If you want to make a difference than do something with your life and make it worth something. Don’t let this lead you into the negative; make it worthwhile and make those two lives mean something. You have a chance so use it for positivity even though you don’t see that right now. No one is going to know how you really feel; only you. They can’t know because they didn’t go through what you went through; all they want to do is help you even if their kind of help is not what you need at the time.

No one knows how to act or respond in this situation but just know that everyone is coming from a place of love for you. The only one that needs to make a difference is you.   

This will change you and you won’t ever be the same person you were yesterday. Without you realizing it, you have already changed even though you don’t see it yet. Tragic devastations change us whether we see it or not; try not to be hard on yourself.

Take this tragedy and use it to grow and learn by becoming better within yourself and your life. Make things matter by doing the best that you can. I understand that you’re going to feel bad, sad, guilty, or even give up on yourself. All those feelings are natural, but we can’t feed into those feelings either. You will feel that way, but you don’t need to stay there in that darkness. 

Don’t think that getting drunk or high is the answer because it’s not; it will take you where you don’t need to be. You definitely won’t find answers there for sure. Everything will come in time; just give yourself the time you need to be whole again and don’t rush it because that doesn’t work either.

You’re not there to please anyone but yourself so take it day by day. Help yourself by asking others for help. What I ask and pray for you is that you give yourself a chance and face what is necessary for you to face so that in time you let it go. What I wish for you is that you can be able to stand up stronger, more courageous, accept the person that you see in that mirror, and realize how great and special you are and that you are worth a great deal. In time, give yourself that chance to see that person in the mirror.

Is that alright?

  Our Booklet for the previous  "Annual -ALWAYS FREE- Spiritual Workshop's "  2/10/2018 . 

 Our Booklet for the previous  "Annual -ALWAYS FREE- Spiritual Workshop's "  2/10/2018 . 

                                                               DIRECTIONS

The hurricane goes in one direction but when the hurricane hits it goes in so many directions. It moves everything that is in its way, leaving us to build what has been destroyed. It shows us how strong we are within or it shows us our weakness. The hurricane that destroyed everything teaches us to build up from the bottom or do we allow ourselves to stay in the bottom? The choices are always up to us for that hurricane might not come just once but many times.

Are we prepared to continue getting up from the ground no matter how many times we need to? When a hurricane comes, is it to wake us up or is it giving you a message that you still have not understood? How many hurricanes would it take before you wake up and realize the truth within you? How many times does it take to realize the truth within you? Is that alright?

                                                                      LOCK

Where does one go to stand when they feel lonely? We are not able to understand the loneliness that one feels within. We try to cover it up with so many things but no matter how much we try, it doesn't happen. How far am I really willing to reach with this loneliness? Do I reach out to the world or do I realize that the loneliness I feel comes from within me? When do I take responsibility for the way I feel? I need to see that the world can’t give me what I need. It is only me that can fulfill that need.

We are taught that those in which we meet and become intimate with are supposed to give us what we are missing within, but that is so wrong because no one is here to give you anything. That is not their job; it is your job to fulfill the emptiness that you hold onto and only you can break out of that prison. Free yourself from what holds you back, which is you, as it has been said: You are your own worst enemy.   

 

                                                                   RAIN

Rain, rain go away, come back another day for my tears have gone as far as it has gone. I want to feel the sun on my face and feel the warmth and the light shine inside of me where love has once been and now it is gone. Love doesn't ask why, and it doesn’t explain why it is what it is; though many question it. Was it true love or just a passing love? We never question love; we take it for face value. Then at the end, we suffer the pain and anguish that follows. Love becomes what you want it to become. Love is so many things but, in reality, it doesn’t make a difference for love is love and it does consist of pain and anguish either way. Is that alright?

 

                                                                CONNECT

Being connected is part of our journey, it's also part of our connection within us. The first connection is with our parents, then family, friends, and finally relationships. Those connections are not the only ones we make; it doesn't end there. Many might think that it does end there because they have forgotten other connections that we have always had before entering this earth. We forget the things that we have left behind and have no knowledge of. For it has been erased as we started to deal with society. Eventually, we lost that connection.

There is a connection to the light, to the sky, to the moon, and to the stars. One of the things that is important and which we have forgotten, is that we are the universe because we carry the universe inside of us. That gift has been given to all of us and it is that part which makes you strong and powerful. Society makes everything about the world out there because that's what they want. In reality, you have always been the universe and powerful within yourself. You came from the universe carrying all the tools that you need and the parts of what is already within you. Society chose to take that away from you and show you their way. They tell you that anything you want or need you should ask the universe and send the vibes out there. They tell you to send it to the universe for what? They neglected to tell you that the universe has been filled with so much negativity, this is why I say that you are the universe. Whatever you need and want, send it to yourself because you won't send anything to yourself that will be harmful or jeopardizes you in any form. The universe has been tempted already so don't go there. I say this to you: You’re the universe. I have always said it and will continue to say it; you are all geniuses, you just don't remember. As children, we do what society says because we believe they know what they are doing but they have no idea what they are doing.  

                                                                      SEE

Everything in this world is an illusion but many choose not to see it. The government and corporations have taken away so much from you and it continues to do so. The government and corporations continue to steal from us in every form of way. We all have become slaves and we have continued this from generation to generation. Are we capable of stopping? No, if the people in this country decided to go to war then maybe there might be change. Or would it make things worse than what it already is? That is the realization whether we choose to see it or not. The reality is that you’re the only person that can make a difference within you if you allow yourself to grow and learn. You accomplish this by living the life that you were meant to, by being the person that you long to be, by learning and not allowing things to affect you the way we allow them to. Do not allow stress, depression, anger, frustration, misery, and unhappiness to fill you. We live in a society that feeds into misery and negative energy; that is how it lives and that is why you're the one that needs to change and get out of that society that makes it complicated. When we allow ourselves to form these categories, we allow ourselves to be controlled by these governments and corporations. We need to set ourselves free from all of that by giving these governments and corporations 5% of ourselves in society. The other 95% belongs to you to do what you wish with it. Can that be possible? Absolutely! Everything and anything is possible. We all need to just wake up.

I TELL MY STUDENTS THIS: DON’T BELIEVE IN WHAT I SAY, BELIEVE IN WHAT YOU SEE IF YOU’RE AWAKENED ENOUGH TO SEE IT!!!

 

                                                                 IS THAT ALL?

 

                                                                LOSE OR FIND

How does one express their love? What has happened to love? Where are the loves stories and where has it gone? I look around and notice that the romance has also disappeared. I close my eyes and look for the picture in my mind, wondering for the picture of love. It’s gone but I can’t accept that it has disappeared. Maybe it is hiding from us or it has worn itself out. I must find it; I refuse to accept that it no longer exists.

 

Where is the love of loves? Why can’t we see it or feel it? Where has the meaning of love gone? Have we become so blinded and fooled ourselves with the game of love by saying that it is a convenience? We have lowered ourselves to the emptiness and followed the illusion that has covered our eyes. We have no idea about love. We catch bits and pieces of what was once love and we realize that what we felt was never true love. You just get the sense of it as you take a breath and you know that it has been lost by you for you choose to hide. You live life like everyone else and think that love is about power, greed, control, beauty, material, the unbeliever, and the user. What have our parents taught us about love? It has been lost for so long that only a few have seen it, felt it, and made sense of it. They acknowledge what the true meaning of love is and the sacrifices one makes for it.

 

You have allowed love to slip away, for you have loved so many times but never felt true love within you. Instead, you play games and gamble with love but that was never real love. You were not willing to learn about that love so you closed your eyes for other things that had nothing to do with love. How sad are you? WAKE UP and surround yourself with the love that matters.

 

You held me to the wonders of the world, never ever letting go while realizing that the love you offered is the unconditional love of freedom. The smile you have shown me and the warmth I have felt has taught me that no matter where I go your love will always keep me in peace. The warmth of your touch will remind me of the joy of feeling you within me. That love won’t ever die but continue to live until we meet a

The System

"The System"

I look at you but you still don’t seem to get it, do you? Things are happening for a reason for it has been told. I kept telling you but you chose not to hear me. Instead, you chose to put too much energy into this system and walk blindfolded and that is exactly what they want. You give it all to them on silver plates. The system knows how to play with us. They have been doing it for centuries and they get away with it. You still choose to hear what you want to hear when it comes to this country. This is all a cover up for what is actually going to happen. I keep telling everyone that this is just the beginning. The system uses our weaknesses and our emotions so they can play with us. All we do is focus on the thing that we don’t have control of but the system makes us believe that we do when in reality we don’t. You need to see what’s behind all of this and why things are really happening and what is heading our way. Again, the system plays with our weaknesses so what are we really afraid of?
1. WAR
2. RACISM
3. PEDOPHILES
4. RAPISTS
5. CORRUPTION
6. CRIMINALS
7. JUDGES
8. LAWYERS
9. EVEN DOCTORS
10. JOBS
11. HOUSING
12. CONTROL
13. POWER

POWER AND GREED IS WHAT RUNS THIS SYSTEM. THEY ARE IN CONTROL WITH EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS AND THE HIGHER UPS ENJOY WATCHING WHAT THEY CREATED. PEOPLE ARE DOING EXACTLY WHAT THEY WANT US TO DO. DON’T BE SURPRISED IF THEY ARE MAKING BETS TO SEE WHO WILL WIN AMONGST EACH OTHER. WE ARE THE ONES ON THE CHECKBOARDS. PLEASE, WAKE UP!

As long as they are in control they will have the upper hand in this country. War is heading our way and by the looks of it they are going to get it. Everyone is falling into their trap. I am not saying it’s going to happen tomorrow but it’s working its way there. They play on people’s hatred towards each other and it’s working. I see it on the news and I see it when people share their feelings about these tragedies. I see what’s really going on. They want us to go against each other while the powerful ones take credit for being peacemakers. Damn, this system is good. I give them credit. They know how to really play with people’s intelligence and emotions.

YOU’LL END UP ASKING YOURSELF ONE DAY, “WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED HERE? BOY, HAVE I BEEN SLEEPING ALL THIS TIME?” BEFORE YOU KNOW IT, IT WILL BE TOO LATE. YOU’LL BE ASKING, “WHERE WAS I?”

As you allow yourself to continue to sleep, don’t ask “Why?” When someone is knocking at your door don’t say, “I didn’t know it was coming.” For it was right in front of your face all this time. Donald Trump is the puppet because he allows himself to be used for greed and power. The negative doors have been opening. When I hear President Obama talk to the families that have lost dear ones and to the families of police officers who have been killed it is clear that he doesn’t take sides at all but he covers his ass real good. His answer towards all of them has no real solutions. Instead, he gives them a load of bullshit.

In each and every race there are assholes; there are a great deal of them. The system allows negative messages that are coming from all over, even across the world, in hopes that it will manifest into violence. The higher ups tell these cops to do what they need to do and give them permission to act on it. They open the door for these cops who have always been racist. Now they can act on their own hate because they have given them the power to act out. Some cops might not be racist but choose to join in for whatever reason. They really feel they are being protected and to an extent they are protected but little do these cops really know. They also will end up paying the price. Some have no idea what’s heading their way. I feel really sorry for them for they choose not to see the truth themselves but the truth will come out.

When a cop is shot and dies it is sad but when innocent people are being shot down it is also sad. When death comes in a horrible and tragic way it is messed up. There are no words that anyone can say to those that lose their loved ones at that moment. I can say that everyone matters but I would be lying because not every life matters. There are those that are rapists, pedophiles, and killers that do it just to kill and bring harm to the innocent. Death is death, no matter how you see it. War brings many deaths and now we are here killing each other. For what? For being different, for the color of our skin? Being different is great and the color of our skin is beautiful. Everyone should know by now how this system works; it is against everyone and anyone. That’s how these powerful and greedy people survive and again you still feed into their negative world. I feel for both sides, for death is death. We need to look at the bigger picture. What is the system really getting ready for? What are they preparing the people for? I know, do you? Everything starts small and then it ends up big.

Let’s remind you of what they did to Native Americans and how they came to their land offering peace. When the Native Americans least expected it they were attacked and killed. It is the same as what they did to African-Americans by bringing them into this country and making them slaves. Every race has suffered in their own century one way or another and everybody has suffered racist remarks.

We, as the people, have also been racist towards others like:
Mexicans
Dominicans
Puerto Ricans
Asians
Jewish
And every other race that exists. We act so righteous and yet no one wants to see themselves for who they really are. We make things worse when we carry so much anger and hatred towards each other and towards ourselves. Who is really being a HYPOCRITE WITHIN YOUR RACE? REALLY! COME ON, YOU KNOW THE TRUTH!

The answer is not out there. The answer is and will always be within you. We are so critical and we look to others to justify our negative feelings. Racism has and will always be apart of this world because everyone feeds on it. It is something we choose not to see. We can blame people for their actions but we also have to start looking at ourselves. There are so many bad people in this word and we just close our eyes. Then for a moment when our eyes are open we want to stand up to the truth. The truth has always been there. Where have you been? It’s like we say, “Well, if it hasn’t happened to me then it’s not a big deal.” But many people are dying all around the world, whether it’s our country or another. They are dying because of freedom, religion, power, greed, control, and racism and that is how war starts. People are trying to define what’s going on with whites and blacks. We choose not to see the bigger picture which is the ones that are holding the strings while everyone is the puppet. We don’t go to the higher ups; why is that? People get riled up for the things that is happening but choose not to see the ones who are holding the strings. They are the ones you need to reach out to because they started all of this. Let them know that you know what’s going on. Lets spread the word and tell this government that we know exactly what they are trying to do. COME ON, OPEN YOUR EYES AND YOUR BRAINS! Who is raising the price on rent, food, and clothing? It is all about control. Where do you really think we are going to end up in years to come? What do you think they are working up to? Continue following the system and keep believing in it. When the time comes to show their true colors then and only then will you learn the meaning of what real suffering, pain, hunger, and control is. When is this going to happen? I don’t know in terms of years or months but I do see that it has started little by little. Just WAKE UP! Even though they have been controlling us all this time it will get worse. YOU ALWAYS HAVE A CHOICE. LET’S STOP FIGHTING EACH OTHER AND START WORKING WITH EACH OTHER.

WONDER Part 2

WONDER

We all choose our way and when we do we wonder if we picked

the right road. Some of us hope that we did because if we don’t we question it. Does that mean that we chose the road incorrectly and that the things we go through serve no purpose?

There is always something within us that tells us something is just not right. We might wonder what it is but still we are not sure.

Something happens within us that we can’t explain to anyone or even to ourselves.

We feel that we are missing something but we don't quite know yet what we are missing; we just know that there is something. Many people run from it, they hide from it, and they don’t want to deal with it; while other people drink their way through it or use drugs.

They allow their ego and pride to get in the way. No one wants to take a chance to learn or grow, they just live in their own world; I call these people sleepers.

These people wander through earth not allowing themselves to grow. They continue to close their eyes to what is in front of them because they choose to live that way and ignore their surroundings.

This is everyone’s choice in life but it’s sad that they choose not to be happy within themselves or realize that there is more to life than what they might think.

No matter what we see or feel life will always test us and pull us in many directions. You and only you have the power to follow the direction you choose. Some of us will follow the wrong path for so many reasons, while others will follow the direction that is right.

Both of these people will either learn and grow from the directions they chose or just stand still. Will they get it or just wonder as they have done all their life?

Why can’t I see clearly and wipe away my pain and my hurt from the darkness? The light tries to shine on me I just don’t allow it for whatever purpose. I just continue punishing myself. I continue feeling worthless and in many ways I am wondering where I went wrong with myself.

I wonder everyday and I can’t stop asking questions as I look in every area to see if I can find the answer.

I walk to places that offer the answer but there is always a price and I know that I don’t have it.

Why do answers cost? What happened to it being free? Are they teaching me or taking my money for their benefit? I wonder where I can find the answer. Why does it have to be so complicated?

Perhaps you do it to yourself. Maybe you’re not looking in the right place.

Fly, see the world.

Fly, see the world’s sadness.

People suffering, crying, wanting answers and yet not receiving them.

Fly, see the world trying to handle their problems and find solutions.

So much tragedy and we wonder what waits for us.

How worse will it be? It’s just the beginning of what’s to come.

Every flower dies while new ones grow to give new beauty differently. Seeing it brings wonders and as it blossoms it shows the new beginning of the flower. As you stare at it, it puts you in a trance. How great is that?

Look towards you
Walk towards you
Hear towards you
Lead towards you
Find towards you

Answer towards you

Choose towards you
Run towards you
See towards you
Build towards you
Face towards you

 

By just acknowledging the mirror

Guru Enlightment

WONDER

In life sometimes we wonder which direction we should follow. Sometimes I find myself not sure of what I feel within. I feel the distance from everything and everyone. I also feel insecure and not confident. It's hard to believe in anything or anyone at times because I'm not sure of what I do believe in. I walk and walk around looking and searching for answers but I don't come up with one. I keep these feelings inside because I'm afraid of how people will see me; the true me, unsure.

I wonder and wonder and the more I wonder the more angry I get and the more confused I feel. What is it with me that I can’t seem to see the answers? What is it that holds me back instead of letting it go? What is wrong with me? I cannot get it together. Everyday I wake up hoping it will be a better day and at times I feel it will be but other times it's not enough to make me feel complete. Where do I search?

Everyone is looking for answers. You're not alone, you think you are but you’re not. Everybody wants answers but I really didn't try hard enough to find the answers. I kept looking in every direction and listening to everyone's words but still I wasn't content.

You see, you don't need to believe in anything or anyone except yourself because those answers are inside of you. You are afraid to see it because you feel that it would take too much of your time to look at yourself and find those answer you’ve been searching for. You have issues and you need to find the solutions for them.

Your issues did not start today, it's been with you longer than you realize. You can make excuses and you can blame everyone and everything but that still doesn't resolve your problems, for you need to take responsibility. “Why?” you might ask, because you choose not to do anything about it and instead chose to blame yourself and everyone around you who you care and love. You’ve been doing this and continue to do it until you decide to take a good look at yourself and find out who and what you are. Look in the mirror and face the person you are meeting for the very first time. Let that person know exactly how you feel, what hurts you, what angers you, what upsets you. Let the tears go down your face; share your tears and the frustration that you feel.

Allow yourself to be courageous by facing the mirror. Wake up and realize that you are special and you are worth it. Stop punishing yourself. Start believing in you; it’s not about the world or the people you need to believe in, it's about you. Believe in yourself by finding your truth not anyone else’s truth. Give yourself a chance to see the true you and stop running away; stop being afraid. JUST FACE IT!