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A child wants to be born but before that child comes to earth to fulfill her journey there are things that child must understand.

The questions and answers begin.

Guide: “Child, why do you want to go to earth?”

Child: “Because I feel it’s time and I am ready; I am prepared for this journey.”

Guide: “Do you think you are strong and courageous enough?”

Child: “Yes, I have learned so much while I’ve been here.”

Guide: “Earth is not an easy place to go to. We all need to think before we enter there. Those that have been there before have failed and they continue to fail. You know it’s not easy, for you have been there before and you know that. Yet, you want to go back again so soon?”

Child: “Yes.”

Guide: “Why, my child?”

Child: “Because I feel that this time around I can do better than before. This time, I feel I am much more stronger and courageous than what I was before.”

Guide: “How about if you realize you are not strong or courageous enough?”

Child: “Then I’ll keep going down until I get it right. Isn’t that the purpose?”

Guide: “Yes, my child, it is. Gaining more knowledge and wisdom each time.”

Child: “I must try and believe that I will do much better than the last time I was there.”

Guide: “Child, things are not going to stay the same on earth as you see it now. I see what is coming and I feel their pain and anguish. They are going to go through a lot.”

Child: “What is the difference now?”

Guide: “The difference is that I see the changes the world is going to go through. For those changes can’t be stopped because all they care about is power and money. Do you still want to go down after hearing this?”

Child: “Yes, I do.”

Guide: “Child, are you not afraid?”

Child: “Of course, I am but sooner or later I need to go down to earth. I also have my purpose that I need to complete. You guide all of us for this purpose and you prepare us for our journey as we have all learned our lessons here.”

Guide: “Yes, you all did, but many of you will forget your own purpose and the tools that we sent you down with as well as the lessons that you’ve learned; that will all disappear. Do you think that there is a change for the people on earth?”

Child: “I don’t know for sure. I remember when I was there before, people didn’t want to hear anything. I know I can’t help everyone but the few that I can help, it will be worth it.”

Guide: “You’re right.”

Child: “I just want to try. I am not saying that I can get everyone to hear me but maybe this time, I can get more than before.”

Guide: “People have not changed; they are still the same, no matter what century it is. There are those that repeat the same cycle and those that still refuse to learn. What makes you think you won’t be one of them?”

Child: “I believe this time I can do it. I can’t explain the feeling I feel but I know that this time it will be different.”

Guide: “Remember, those feelings that you have could also disappear in time as you are on earth.”

Child: “Yes, you’re right but I still have to try. That is what is taught to us here before we enter earth; that everything and anything is possible in a positive or negative way. We are the ones that need to choose in time and we must never, ever give up.”

Guide: “Remember, this journey you are taking won’t be easy for you either because you’re going to have many responsibilities for a lot of people who are going to have their doubts and beliefs. It's going to be hard for those that believe something that was taught to them from centuries ago and has been passed on from generation to generation. Everyone holds onto things they believe in.”

Child: “Yes, I see that but they have forgotten how to believe in themselves.”

Guide: “That’s where you come in to show them that their belief wasn’t supposed to be taken away for they forget the most important person and that is themselves. Everyone has forgotten their own purpose.”

Child: “Yes, they have forgotten because when they came to earth they were taught by their parents and society to believe in things other than themselves.They have closed their eyes and blocked their hearing. They have forgotten where they came from and that is sad.”

Guide: “Yes, it is. I ask you, are you ready to be born?”

Child: “Yes, I am ready to be born.”

Guide: “Then let’s get you ready to be born.”

Child: “I am excited. Can I see my new parents?”

Guide: “Yes, but know this, what you see might not be what you think it is.

Child: “Why do you say that?”

Guide: “Because in that world down there, things change all the time. Situations change as well so be prepared.”

Child: “Now I am kind of scared.”

Guide: “That is a good thing then because you might not be caught off guard as you live in that world. Remember this child, when the opportunity arises allow yourself to be open to hear the spirits because many people have let go of the spirits. You will face many challenges; it's up to you to continue being strong and courageous. For we can’t interfere in your life no matter how bad it gets for we give you the tools to deal with whatever comes your way and you must remember those tools. Your prayers will be answered but maybe not to your liking at times or you might think we answered your prayers but be aware from where those answers are coming from because it is not always us. It’s time to say goodbye to everyone here.”

Child: “Will they watch over me?”

Guide: “Yes, they will and at times you’ll feel them and hear their voices.”

Child: “Oh, wow that is great.”

Guide: “Yes, it is but remember you have to be open to know this and hear it.”

Child: “Thank you for teaching me the things I needed to learn from my past lifetimes and for preparing me for this journey.”

Guide: “You’re welcome, my child. Go and say your goodbyes. Everyone comes to see your new birth and they are happy for you. Hurry up; it's getting closer to your birth. I am here. Okay, child, are you ready?

Child: “Yes, I am.”

Guide: “Close your eyes. When you open your eyes again you’ll be in the world.”



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Guide: “It’s time for you to leave.”

Child: “Ok, bye everyone. See you all soon.”

She carried me for nine months and during that time it was nice to be able to go back and forth and still see my family. I was allowed to continue to learn until I was ready for the day of my birth, which is today. Here I go to enter the world.

I must remember the things that are important and the many lessons I was taught. In years to come, many people are really going to forget about themselves and the children on earth more than ever before. People will look elsewhere and to other things like joining cults or religions or whatever intrigues them most. Other people won’t care at all. Meanwhile, everyone has forgotten the most important lesson of all which is that everything they are looking for is and always will be inside of them. For everyone comes with their own tools but we have forgotten all of it ; that is so sad. All of our answers are inside of us but we don’t believe it because we have lost ourselves on this earth. We have never ever acknowledged how important we all are. We all carry knowledge, wisdom, and so much more. We have just forgotten this but those that remember some of it will use it for fame and to make themselves rich off of you; others will use it to hold you back and control you.

Here I go! My mother is pushing me out. Oh wow! I am so cold. What is that light? It is too bright for me. I find myself talking to them but instead I am crying. I am letting them know how I feel but they don’t understand me; why is that? Hey, can you hear me? Every time I move my lips I am crying. What is this? No one hears me or understands me. What is this? No one told me about this. Now I need to find a way for these people to understand me. It took me a while to get it and how to make these humans understand what I needed. My cries have a purpose and meaning but I also have words; they just didn’t get it either or they didn’t try to get it. I spent my months getting familiar with them. I needed to learn their language because they weren’t getting my language at all.

Time flies and here I was at 1 years old. There were many people there that day but I didn’t recognize some of them at all. I just wanted to be in my home and walk around freely. I couldn’t walk the path because there were too many people there and many of them were taking turns carrying me. I tried to reach out to my mother but she didn’t understand that I just wanted to be home. More time went by and I experienced many sad and inappropriate behavior. Growing up wasn’t easy at all; it came with pain, anguish, hurt, tears, anger, hatred, disappointment, cruelty, shame, insecurity, and fear. I felt worthless, stupid, incapable of being someone important, and had no self-esteem. People always made me feel like I didn’t exist; they used me to make themselves feel better and tried to take control of anything and everything. And on top of all this, it came with being sexually abused and raped. I learned all of this growing up; how sad was that? There so many other children that went through worse and that is a bigger sadness because no child should ever start their journey with so much pain and sadness. I could have never ever imagined having the life that I did. You think you’re the only one going through disasters and then you get to realize that so many people have gone through their own tribulations. I got to realize how many cruel people are here on this earth and all the sickness that is being covered up; this sickness that has started from the most powerful people on earth.

Being born on this earth was more than I could have ever expected but never what I actually went through. I was an angry kid and I wanted to get back at everyone who hurt me. I used my rage to fuel me and I was out of control. I wasn’t able to hear what anyone had to say to me and I didn’t want to hear them; I didn’t care who it was.

Guide: “My child, you have forgotten your way. Can you hear me?”

I was just a kid.

Guide: “Have we lost you too? Have you forgotten what you said before you left, my child?”

I was so angry that I lashed out but it was strange because even though I was filled with anger, I didn’t feel good hurting other people and that made me angrier. I didn’t understand why I felt the way I did.

Guide: “Child, there is still a part of you that knows the truth; don’t let it go even though you’re not able to hear me.”

More time passed by and I found myself not knowing anything. I was more confused than ever. I was just a kid and I didn’t understand anything but my feelings.

Guide: “Keep questioning yourself and you will find the answers. Don’t close up now; try to stay open, my child.”

I started to feel sad for some kids in my school who were being picked on and I felt sorry for them so I decided to defend them. Don’t get me wrong, I was scared too but my anger was stronger. These bullies thought it was ok to treat others horribly and it wasn’t. My anger was towards the people who hurt others and I tried to help those that couldn’t help themselves. I was a little thing, skinny with no fighting experience. All I had was my anger and it did scare many kids away from me because they thought I was crazy. It was something about the way I lashed out; I was someone else. I just had this attitude of “I don’t care.” What do you really know when you’re a kid?

Guide: “I am proud of you for helping others but you need to know that is not the way. You can stand up but not with so much anger. Child, can you hear me?”

I started to have dreams and they were nice and peaceful; some people would be talking to me. I heard what they said and the feeling I started to feel was peaceful. I would ask questions and I would receive the answers in my dreams. In the dreams, they would tell me that answers came from many directions and that I needed to be aware. As a child, we don’t understand a lot but it’s like I did understand what was said to me. Then, one day, I suddenly hear a voice and I asked, “Who is that?”

Guide: “My child, it is your friend. I’m here to help you to understand everything that has been going on with you.”



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Guide: “But you still don’t hear me. You have become lost. I told you that people can make you forget the reason and the purpose you chose this journey. Different situations can cause the change in humans.

When these things happen, they lose their memories and they never realize these memories until they are home. Everyone is stuck in their pain and anguish that it becomes a challenge for people to find their answers; it is a challenge for them to find the answers and the tools that has been given to them. That is when the reality of the world collapses and everything starts turning backwards and not forward. They have forgotten it all and all the dreams they had. But we still have hope that you will realize it and come back. You may ask, ‘Why do I have hope?’ Well, it is because as a child you have never ever given up, no matter what was thrown to you in any lifetime; you always found a way to fight back.

We see you and we know what you have gone through but it's up to you to break free. Even though you can’t hear us or feel us, we are with you until you decide otherwise. Child, you have felt pain and have caused others pain but it didn’t make you feel good. You realized that gossiping about others and making them look horrible didn’t heal your pain. On your own, you realized that there is something inside of you which knew that, that behavior wasn’t acceptable. We hear when you pray and ask for forgiveness. We see when you’ve cried and shown your regrets; no one has seen that side of you.

We remember one particular day when you asked a question, ‘My mother hits me everyday when she drinks. Can you make the hurt be a little less?’ In your own darkness, you never asked for her to stop hurting you or asked why she didn’t love you. You only asked if we could make it hurt less. You never really knew who you were praying to or talking to. You always looked at the stars and spoke to them. We knew you were going to be the teacher that you are today because at just a young age you were able to understand things that adults couldn’t understand. People knew that there was something different about you.

You always spoke with knowledge and that was the knowledge that you brought down with you, even though you didn’t know it at the time. At school you couldn’t use that knowledge that they were teaching for you didn’t have that. It wasn’t that you couldn’t learn but there was so much you carried within your world and the responsibility that you had as a child. You were a mother to your mother at a very young age and you were a very emotional child that thought with her heart. As you thought with your heart, you didn’t give time to think with your brain; that came later on in your lessons. You helped others by showing the kind heart that you have. You always asked for help for these people but never for yourself; it was always about others and never about you. You were in pain and hurting but you couldn’t see another human being feel pain and hurt. At just a young age, you understood what they felt.

We have seen it all. We have seen the entire world full of people and children who suffer on earth. Your prayers have always been for others in pain and anguish but never ever about you, even till this day it is still the same. You never ever pretended to be perfect because at an early age you realized that you weren’t. You carried so much insecurities within yourself that we thought you were going to explode. You were a child that was into everything and anything, a nosey one to a fault. You wanted to know everything and anything and you wanted to learn more about the people in the world than going to school and learning from books. School was never your strength at all.

Your school was the people in the world for that became your expertise. You hang around people who always knew things that you didn’t know and you learned from them. You didn’t want to stop learning. You wasn’t ever afraid to learn and you continued to learn everyday, even though you were going through your hardships. You also learned how to laugh at your own pain and darkness; you found your way.

You were eight years old when you started to realize certain things and as you got older you realized much more. You went to Puerto Rico in the summer as a child and you looked forward to it even though there was still hardships there. You managed to make it enjoyable. We spoke to you but you still didn’t hear our voices until you wanted to die. You ate a plant that wasn’t good and though it didn’t make you die, it did give you a stomachache. You even laughed at that because you said, ‘I can ever make that happen.’ We were sad and yet you made us laugh.

You just have a way about you. Even though people were in their own darkness, you were never afraid to go through theirs. You tried so many times to help your mother so she may stop drinking but it always failed.

Let’s go back to when you first heard the voice. Do you remember? Think about it and answer the question.”

Child: “I always said I was eight or nine.”

Guide: “You were ten. Do you remember what you were doing at the time?”

Child: “No.”

Guide: “You were at the river washing clothes. I called you by your name and you turned. I said to you, ‘Don’t be afraid of my voice and,”

Child: “And I said, ‘I am not afraid. Who are you and where are you?’”

Guide: “‘You can’t see me,’ I replied, but you could hear me and you started to laugh.”




Guide: “‘You can’t see me,’ I replied, but you could hear me, and you started to laugh. As I was talking to you, I saw that you weren’t scared but the more we kept communicating I noticed that you were so tough for a young girl. I saw that there was a lot of work to be done with you.

It took years for you to become free of your pain, anger, and sorrows. You were hard-headed and you stood your ground. We understood it, for you didn’t believe in any human beings; there was still work to do.

Lessons began and you were just a feisty child. You made fun of everyone including yourself. You had a way of looking at life that brought more attention to you; people couldn’t pinpoint it. You were so kind to people that it didn’t matter what their status was. They could have been drugs addicts, prostitutes, gay, alcoholics or just normal people but you were always kind. You just understood them, and you defended them to others while you were being judged for having an alcoholic mother. You carried so much pain inside, but no one saw it. They just saw a quiet kid that people could take advantage of. Yet, you kept smiling and laughing. You also loved to dance; that was another way out for you and an outlet that you brought with you. You made those around you laugh; you just had that gift. You have never ever forgotten where you came from. You always wanted to learn more each time, even if you didn’t understand it at times, but eventually you caught on. You carried compassion wherever you went even though you were still in pain. You always thought that there were kids in worst situations than you who were suffering. You never felt sorry for yourself and till this day you're still the same. You didn’t make it easy on us, either.

The lessons we were about to give you wasn’t going to be easy. We knew that you would have to realize that you made mistakes. Now you needed to face it and that wasn’t easy for you because you didn’t want to be seen as a person who caused pain. There was no excuse either, no matter how you felt at the time. You had to realize that the life you had wasn’t what you expected. You had to learn that there were people who were cruel and hateful and that these people had no understanding of their own lives. You had to see how so many people continue making the same mistakes and don’t learn from them. You had to learn how there are so many kids crying for help in their sufferings and how many will die because of people’s misery and anger. You had to see how many kids will suffer under those circumstances? You saw the war that was heading your way. You always saw farther than the other children. You started to see things though you couldn’t see it for yourself and because of that you made mistakes. In time, you allowed yourself to learn from those mistakes. There was always something preparing you for your journey even though, at one moment, we thought you were going to be in the world.

As you were learning, you caught on fast but when it came down to learning more about yourself, it took time. You were doing good. Remember when you left the spiritual world to see the world out there because you wanted to see what you were missing? You realized in time that there was nothing you were missing, and people were like robots, as they still are today. You were disappointed but you still learned. During those couple of years, you didn’t hear our voices because we wanted you to see things on your own which in time you did. Then you returned to your lessons. Years passed by and everything was good but then tragedy occurred when your son was diagnosed with cancer at the age of six.

You learned that he would become your master which was something you would have never thought. For it was his time to teach you and he taught you so much. He shared with you more about the spirits and showed you their world; this journey was the most difficult one you had to face. When you looked at the stars at night you would ask that your son wouldn’t suffer, and you would ask for the strength and courage you needed to accept what was to come. You never asked for him to be cured and continue living because you knew already that whatever was meant to be will be. You also believed that it wasn’t that you weren’t getting your answers but that he was going to die even though the doctors said he would be fine. You didn’t believe in asking for his life because you understood something that many didn’t understand; you knew he was going to die. This was something that wasn’t easy at all, but you needed to be in the reality of it all and you also knew that it was meant to happen. That was the hardest thing to deal with, but you faced reality and made no excuses.

You fought to keep him alive as long as it was possible, and you never felt pity. Instead, you made him stronger which helped him to last longer than what was excepted. That journey you took was the worst and yet you had compassion for the parents that were facing the same journey as your child. Many of their children had brain cancer or other types of cancer. We welcomed many of our children back so soon. Losing a child is never easy. Do you remember telling this to a woman that lost her child?

She said to you, ‘My daughter died in a car accident. I know how you feel losing a child for I also lost mine.’ You told her, ‘No, I don’t know how you feel because you lost your only child. I still have two children left.’ She looked at you and couldn’t understand what you just told her. At first, she was confused and then she realized that what you said was so true. It took her awhile to connect with what you told her. She reached out and hugged you and kissed you. She was amazed that you told her that. She said to you, ‘Thank you for seeing that and for letting me know that there is a difference. Thank you,’ and then she left. You also told this same message to your best friend who had also lost her only son in a fire. When someone loses their only child it's not the same as you losing your child. Every death is different, and everyone responds differently. You believed that those deaths were more painful than the one you experienced. For that is the way you felt but you took the time to see it for what it was and that takes strength and courage to accept it too.

You were still learning and growing and allowing yourself to see things more and understand more of your lessons. You were able to hear clearly and feel things and the people around you. You got to know their world and understand it which was important because then you could help them for every human being was different and their world was also different. You learned how to deal with each and every one of them. We knew that it wasn’t going to be easy for you either and that you were going to go through a lot of tribulations for human beings are stuck in their own ways. Many of them believe in so many things but they never ever believe in themselves. Other people will question your teachings, and some will use it to their advantage. Others will laugh and call you names and there are those that always run away from everything and can’t face the truth. You understand that because you have been there before you gave up and surrendered yourself. Answer me, what do you think you have done to this point in your journey? What have you gained?”

Child (as an adult): “I have followed my journey and I have not allowed anyone to take me away from it. I have gained more wisdom and knowledge than I could ever ask for. I learn from all of my students for they also carry messages. I also learned that humans have lost themselves and given themselves to the world but have never given anything to themselves. I learned how many people are afraid to see the truth and how they continuing to hide and run away. Everyone is prepared to spend money on knowledge, but they don’t realize that they carry knowledge and wisdom already inside of themselves. They don’t see how amazing they are.”

Guide: “Yes, you’re right but don’t forget that your job is to teach those that don’t want to learn and help those that think they have it all figured out. I see your students are taking action in what they need to do but do they get it? Do they think they get it? Your lessons take a long time and other lessons come quickly but your lessons never came quickly, right?

Me: “No, they didn’t, and I am still learning.”

Guide: “You’re right but let's go to the lessons that you didn’t want to face. I want you to remember why you chose to continue this journey? What is so important about the journey you are taking? There are people who don’t consider you to be who you are. I hear people asking you, ‘Where did you get your degree in spirituality?’ I have seen people reading everything you write, and they like it but they still run away and some still hold onto their pride and ego. It’s not about the truth of someone else, it's about the truth within them; that's what you deal with all the time. How does that make you feel as a teacher?”




Me: “People have a way of driving themselves crazy. There are people that are funny in their own ways and in the ways they choose to see things. They make themselves feel happy with their own lies and they live their lives that way because it is easy for them. I chose to continue to fulfill my purpose because I didn’t want to disappoint myself or those that believed in me. What do I find important about journey? Well, I want to do more than my last journey. I want to reach out to people who were lost and still are. I want to help them find their way so they can be free and independent.

Yes, you’re right about the fact that there are people who won’t consider me to be who I am and that is alright with me. For everyone has free will to do and think the way they do; that is what we have been taught before coming into earth. I can only do the best that I can to help those that are willing to grow and learn.

Yes, there are people who ask me, ‘Where did you get your degree in spirituality?’ I smile at them and tell them the truth, that the spirits taught me and they look at me with wondering eyes. At that moment I leave because I see with their eyes that they have no understanding of it. It doesn’t matter what anyone thinks of me; it's what I think about myself that matters.”

Guide: “People are always going to judge what they don’t understand. It’s like a child who’s born with a gift and society calls them a genius when in reality they brought that gift with them from their past lifetime. No one shares that knowledge. When you look at it, there’s no geniuses there, it’s because they chose to bring that gift back with them in this lifetime to finish the journey they couldn’t finish before.

It took a long time to get where you are at and you work hard. Everything did not come easy but you did it. Everybody’s job is to find their own way and hopefully they get it. There is so much division going on that it makes it confusing for so many people; they are unsure of which direction they should go. Life knows how to play you and use your weaknesses to bring you down. One way or another, everyone falls for it. They believe they’re thinking ahead when in reality they’re not. Education matters in this world because you all have to live and survive here but just remember that when you come back home that education has no purpose here. It’s about what you’ve learned and how much you’ve allowed yourself to grow and gain wisdom and knowledge. These are things that costs no money or pressure, instead it carries so much value within you. I also understand that it might be too much for your brain to take in.

While on your trips to Puerto Rico, you learned so much about the spiritual world. You didn’t look forward to going back home. You felt as though time passed by too quickly and you never had enough time, but you did, though it didn’t seem like that to you. Going back home to New York was not a really peaceful place for you either. You got some peace in Puerto Rico even though you had your demons there as well. Like always, you dealt with what came your way. Once back home, you were getting ready to start the school year which was something you didn’t look forward to because you had other things to deal with like your mother and your brothers. Your brothers dealt with things differently than you. In their own way, they ran away from their problems and did what they wanted to do, not what they needed to do. It got to the point where your oldest brother would end up putting his hands on your her mother because he was angry and that's how he dealt with it; you were always in the middle defending your ma.

You saw violence at a very young age. It started with your father hitting your ma when you were six years old. Even at that age you would still get in between your mother and defended her; you were her protector till the end.

You took responsibility, but it was the way in which you did it that stands out. You always had to see the truth from the beginning. You owned up to your mistakes, which isn’t easy to accept. No one admits that they were wrong or that they made a mistake. You always took responsibility even though there were many times when you wanted to run away and never ever look back. Especially during the time that your son passed away. At times, you still feel the same way. I think if there was a way to run away, you would. Remember when your mother said it was time to do your first communion and in order to do so, you had to confess your sins to a priest. You went in and sat down and waited for the priest to open the small window. He waited for you to say, ‘Forgive me, Father for I have sinned.’ The priest replied by asking you to tell him your sins and you said to him, ‘Well, if you tell me yours, I’ll tell you mines.’ The priest was surprised you said that and repeated again, ‘Tell me your sins, child.’ You told him, ‘I’m not your child and I won’t tell you my sins until you tell me yours.’ He got very upset with you. He took you to your mother and told her what you did. Your ma slapped you and scolded you. She told you to behave and respect the priest.

You went back to the room and he asked you again to share your sins. You told him, ‘You have a sin.’ He asked, ‘What is it?’ You replied, ‘Your sin was that you lied to my mother because you didn’t tell her the truth.’ He asked you, ‘What was the truth?’ You replied, ‘That you didn’t want to share your sin with me.’ At that point he had enough and told you to leave. You were the same way when you did your confirmation. You never ever understood it and you questioned everything, even the bible. You would annoy those around you and you always felt something wasn’t right. You told a friend of yours in school that there was something with these priests and nuns that just wasn’t right; it was something you felt and you went with it. Years later, it was shown that what you felt was right. You were a thinker and you always tried to see things for what it was and at times, you ran into complications because of it. There were those that didn’t like you. You started to become a loner, but it wasn’t that you were trying to prove everyone wrong; it was about what you felt and you believed that you stood your ground even though many people tried to change your way of seeing things. You didn’t allow that to happen and you continued your journey, even though you did not realize that you were taking a journey at that time.

Many things ran through your mind and none of it made sense to you. You always asked questions in everything and anything. You wanted to find the meaning of it all. You didn’t want to stop learning but things became more difficult for you; you couldn’t learn like the other children in school. Learning at school wasn’t your strength, but not because you couldn’t learn; it just wasn’t easy for you. In the 1950’s, no one understood that there were students that learned differently. The difficulty in learning made you feel stupid and the crisis in your home didn’t make it any better. School didn’t bring that much interest to you. You were learning more about spiritually and you understood your lessons well, which was strange. Even though you struggled, you didn’t stop in school either, but you still fell behind in your learning and your homework.

You still had your tribulations in your life but you found ways to laugh at yourself while making mistakes. Someone asked you, ‘Does being spiritual mean that you don’t go through hard times?’ You looked at that person and said, ‘Is that what you believe?’ We are both in the same world. Why should it be any different for me? Everyone suffers in their own way, seriously. No one gets away with anything even if they think they are getting away for it always comes back, one way or another.’ You were right in how you answered. You didn’t chose to prove that person wrong because it didn't matter what they thought about you. You knew better and you started to see that there are questions that did not have to be answered.

Your started to realize what was important in your life. Your mistakes became little and those mistakes didn’t hurt you or anyone else. Life threw you a lot of negativity your way but you dealt with it and then let it go. Negativity will always be there and it will remind you that it isn’t going anywhere; it will be there till the day you leave this earth. You started to stay away from those that were negative and you lost many people in your life but that was your choice; you already had a good friend and you were about to meet another good friend. You grew to stand on your own and you weren’t afraid to face what was heading towards you.”

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Guide: “People put too much trust in society and not enough in themselves. They believe that society knows more than they do, but does society know more? Society knows how to manipulate you in so many ways by trying to tell you what is right and what is wrong. Society uses this as a way to hold people, just like everything else. Everyone is looking for what is new and they are letting go of the old; it's what's in fashion.

We keep forgetting that we are all geniuses but society tells you differently. They take what's been inside of you since the day you have arrived on earth. You are left with your own greed and power. They take away the best parts of you and you actually believe that what has been told to us by society is best and boy, are you wrong. You are forgetting so much of where you came from. We are here to fly and spread our wings to the highest level of our journeys so at the end we may let go and arrive back to where we started from.

You have lost the beauty that flows through the water. As we saw it shining it gave us colors of the earth, where the land is so precious and kind that it feeds us, as the trees cover us from harm. We have lost the value of the land, trees, water, sun, moon, and the stars that once made us feel beauty within by putting a smile in our hearts. It allowed us to surrender ourselves to the peace that entered while we set our minds free of the heaviness we have been carrying and it allowed us to recharge again so that we may deal with another day. Where has all of this gone and why have you let go of it? We can say that people have destroyed the beauty, but what about you? What have you done to find that beauty that is still caged within you? You can’t even blame what you believe in because it’s still your choice to open yourself up. Don’t think that society or a book can do it for you because that's not the way it goes. It's all up to you to recognize and let go of what holds you down. The people that run the world are destroying it because of their own agenda. They feel that they are empowered or they are some sort of Higher Power and they do as they please. We just stand there and take it because we are too busy doing what society asks of us.

They are getting away with it. People believe what they choose to believe in. Everyone thinks they are right, but are we right and who is to say that it's right? When do you recognize your truth? What is your truth? You all need to find your truth. Your truth cannot be somebody else’s truth; everyone needs to find their own. How does one find their truth? By getting to know who and what you are, by finding your purpose and allowing yourself to follow your journey. How does one know if they are following their journey? You’ll know if you allow yourself to hear. Everyone can hear their spirits. There is not a person on this earth that doesn’t hear their spirits but it's up to you to open that door. Believing in yourself is the biggest opening you can do.

Remember what I said before, we all don’t come from the same place therefore we are all mixed together here on earth, the positive and the negative. Our higher source is different from others who come from the negative. They also carry wisdom and knowledge within them, just look at who is running the world. We came here to build the beauty of the world and to enrich it with the gifs and tools we have brought down with us. The land is our source of growth, just as the trees bring us wisdom and knowledge from the fruit that it carries for us.”

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Guide: “Everyone wants to come to earth to find the answers that each person must find for themselves. In their journey, they continue to grow and learn for the world’s job is to show you the beauty that each world has to offer. The world also has two sides to it, just like everything in life, you must decide which side to go to for that is always your choice. You are the one with the answers because you bring the knowledge and wisdom that was given to you before entering this earth. No one comes here with nothing; they come here with everything. You have the choice to not use your abilities. Many people have lost their way and they have corrupted everything that was supposed to be good; they took it for granted and they still do so today.

You are all slaves to this system and will continue to be slaves until the last breath you take. Sooner or later you're going to end up with nothing and you’ll find yourself where you never ever thought was possible to be. Things will happen, that’s for sure. You’ll realize the truth when you end up facing it. Everyone’s job was to wake up; that was your responsibility to see with your own eyes but I see people are still sleeping or they choose not to see because they are afraid. Believe me, I get it and we are afraid for all of you but ignoring it won’t make it go away either. This life is not about living miserably. Everyone worries and they go through many tribulations, tragedies, pain, sadness, and unhappiness. They have lots of fears and doubts within themselves. They don’t believe in themselves which is the greatest sadness of it all. Society and the system want you to be confused and you allow it because you follow the system. You believe that they care about you but you are all just a number to them. It was never about how much you have but about how much you have learned and gained within you. It was about fulfilling your journey. You reach out for things that don’t matter but who am I to say that, right? I am not judging you. I’m sharing what I see and the things that are happening around you that you choose not to see.

We are not about controlling you. We are not asking you to follow either. It’s about finding out who you are and what you are. It’s about giving yourself that freedom that was given to you before you entered earth. We also need you to believe in yourself because if you don’t then what was the purpose of you coming here? Finding these things out about yourself would have made this journey better for you. You can serve yourself first and then others so that you may teach them lessons. Earth is like going to school and learning new things but we continuously learn until it is our time to leave earth.

We want you to believe in yourself and know that you have a purpose whether small or big; it doesn’t matter at all. The important thing is that you follow it. No one is greater than the other for you are all great and that's what we want you to see within yourselves. When I would see that little girl, who is today a teacher, I saw it was never easy for her. I remember when she would go to church with her mother and at a young age she didn’t understand why people gave tidings. She asked her mother about this but her mother would silence her. However, an elderly man who happened to hear her explained why the church goers give tidings and the girl replied, “Then why don’t they feed the man that sits on the stairs? He needs help. The priests tells him that he must get up and learn.” The elderly man looked at her and said, “You’re right; that wasn’t nice what he did.” The little girl had two quarters and said, “I didn’t put this in the tidings because I want to give it to the man on the stairs.” The elderly man laughed because of the child’s innocence and how she believe that two quarters would be enough to feed the homeless man.

He took the quarters from the girl and said, “I will buy him something to eat, ok?” She looked at the elderly man and said, “Don’t lie to me. Those quarters are for his food, not for you to keep.” The elderly man replied, “I promise I will feed him.” She left with a smile and no one, not even her mother, knew what just happened. She told her mother, “I don’t want to give money to the church anymore” and her mother said, “You’re crazy. You want to go to hell?” The kid replied by saying, “Ma, I didn’t come from hell so I don’t have to worry about that. Ma, the one that should worry is the priest.” Her mother asked why and the little girl said, “Because what he is doing is bad and it is wrong.” The kid asked, “Why can’t we just give tidings to the people that need it?” Her mother just brushed her off. The kid wasn’t wrong in what she asked. If you choose to give tidings then give it to a person you know really needs it, like children who are in need, the homeless, or children that wear the same clothes every day. You decide who you think needs help but don’t give it to these places that are not in need because you are making them richer and richer. Everyone should be aware of where the money goes; it wasn’t easy getting it for many people work very hard to make a living. It’s not what you say that matters, it’s what I see that does. This child had no idea what was heading towards her but she saw things that no one else saw at the moment.

Money always comes and goes; everyone is facing difficulties except the rich. You all have to pull it together and make things happen; don’t wait until it is too late. Again, everyone is feeling the pressure and everyone is either hiding or running to nowhere. You all need to survive and I see it’s hard. There are so many people, especially children with illnesses and I see the suffering that everyone is going through; that is not the way it was supposed to be.”



Guide: “The rain brings the cleanliness of the land as well as our bodies. The wind blows away the negativity within us. The sun brings in the heat within our hearts. The moon brings us the relaxation that we need to face things within us. The stars remind us of our journeys back home.

You have seen this and have seen the truth within you. Your lessons were not easy but you stayed even though you might not have known what was really going on. There were many people who also suffered in their own way; we had to see others that went thru painful situations as well. You dealt with your truth as others tried to find truth in other places but not within themselves. They looked to find their truth in the world. We are like children who still follow others and not ourselves. One way or another, we all have lost our way. Many people choose to corrupt themselves while others try to do the right thing. The system will continue to be with us until our last breath; we are just numbers to them so we can do the job they cannot do and I am not just talking about the jobs that people don’t want. THINK!

We are so far and yet so close but we choose not to see it. Yet, you reach out for things you want and never for what you need. Even though we are all different, everyone gets treated the same because we go through the same experiences but it doesn’t mean we deal with it the same way because we all deal with things differently. This is something the system doesn’t want to accept; everyone is not same as the other. Many people choose to run and hide; no one wants to face the truth within them. Do I blame them? No, it’s not easy facing the truth all the time and seeing the reality of things. Many people are afraid of death for it scares them and they are unsure of where they’ll end up yet they’re not afraid enough to get their life together, funny, isn’t? People who have experienced death and have survived will share what they saw but they don’t realize that, that’s their journey they are sharing, it doesn’t mean it’s your journey.

For people who see the light and survive, it means that it’s not time to go home yet and they were given the chance to do what they need to do within themselves as well as reflect on their life and relationships with others. For people who felt as though they were in hell, it means that if they continue the journey their on that is where they’ll end up. Why do we have to wait for these signs when we all know better? Come on, you know when your things are not correct. You’re not children though you act as one. Death is just another form of lesson and an opportunity for growth for we all will learn from our mistakes and make sure we don’t take it with us when we return to earth again. I have seen you all and yet you are still stuck in this society because it feels good and you like it.

Remember this, you don’t take anything with you; everything stays behind, you fools. What no one understands is that we all suffer, one way or another, whether you’re rich or poor; everyone carries their own baggage. We all live in world that is calculated by the government, society, and the system; it is what it is.

What everyone also doesn’t realize is that not everyone is going to succeed but that doesn’t mean you fail, it means you choose a different path, that’s all. Another thing, when we use the word “try” the world sees it as you’re trying or attempting to do something. However, the word “try” means you’re actually doing it and that’s how we see it. Everyone shares their knowledge and wisdom but it doesn’t mean they are right. It’s up to you to see the true within you.”

Me: “I have met all sorts of people, both rich and poor, and I’ve seen people make things more complicated than what it needed to be. I’ve seen people let fear take over them. I have also met those, both poor and rich, who are humble. I laugh at what society says about children that are born geniuses because in reality that child is here to finish the journey that they didn’t get to finish when they were here on earth the last time. Why does society put the word “genius?” Society has a word for everything and we are taught to believe in those words. It makes people feel entitled because they feel they are stupid if they go behind the screen.”

Guide: “Everyone is born with knowledge and wisdom and you all carry gifts for everyone is a genius. The system tells you differently; they separate us into different categories but we can all learn from each other. We all need degrees to live in this society and I get that but there is more to this journey than a degree. We miss the important things in the world because you are too busy making money, paying bills, and taking care of your children but many of you have lost the way when it comes to taking care of yourself and your children. Everyone focuses more on themselves than anything else. These children are our future and you keep forgetting that. No one says you can’t enjoy yourself but there are always limits in life otherwise you wouldn't be able to accomplish the things you need to. Any journey we take won’t be easy but we all have a PURPOSE.

Just try not to let the system or society take control of your world. You all must be courageous and stand up for your beliefs. Do not allow fear or people to take you away from your journey for they are here to destroy you little by little. Don’t allow pride and ego or drugs to dictate how your life should be; look further than what is in front of your face.”

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Part 9

Guide: “All these illnesses were made by mankind to destroy and kill human beings as well as our children; they are the ones who suffer the consequences. When you lock innocent children in a cage and allow the world to see it, what does that say to you? They are just cattle to this government. Tell me, what does the treatment of these kids have to do with citizenship? So they are not citizens, but does that mean you treat children like that? NO! That is not right, no matter what. Where is the compassion and kindness towards all of our children in the world? They are our future but with the way things are going there will be no future for these kids. These children will be full of hatred and anger; this is what you are creating. I see it everyday in your world and everyone blinds themselves to it.

The amount of children who are full of anger continues to build up in the world. You all see the moment, but not the future. You save moments that have purpose and beauty and are meaningful but not the moments of injustices. I feel sorry for all of you who cannot see or choice not to see. Tell me, what do these children have to do with citizenship? It’s not their fault and they shouldn’t be treated so horribly. Wake up! Please don’t think that because these children are Mexican that this treatment makes it ok. If anything, this just shows you your future; it shows that you and your children carry no value in this world. Come on, now! Why would you? Because you’re American? Yeah, right. They send our children to war and then when they come back they don’t give a damn about them. They serve their purpose and then the government knows they have no use for them. If they come back with issues that is not the government’s problem anymore. Keep living in an illusion.

You don’t have to believe in anything to know that this world is going to crumble. No one wants to hear anything; they just want to be able to do as they please. No one says you can’t do what you want, just be aware and do what is in your will to do. This is not about religions, this is about human kindness and what allows you to be the best that you can be in your journey. Sometimes we wonder where does religion come into this because that was not the motive at all; it was always about you. Is there something bigger than all of us? Yes, you’re foolish people to believe there isn’t but it's more than just one thing. Your eyes are still closed and there are so many lessons to be learned.

You meet people or children that you feel are ahead of their time. Why is that? Have you ever wondered why? Probably because they carry messages for you all and they are here to wake you up. In time, others will come from many places here on earth so be prepared, everyone. Don’t be surprised or shocked when it happens. Everything in the world has a connection; you will see it if you allow it. For there is more to gain and learn from our lessons. We never ever stop learning; it continues even when we leave this world. Don’t be discouraged by adults for they are still children trying to find their way. Continue following your journey but you must understand yourself first in order to understand your journey. Remember, you’re here for a reason. We know that it's hard at times and that nothing comes easy. You all have been there and have seen it. Just know that everyone is responsible for their own life as well as their own journey. You are all teachers regardless if you come from the negative or the positive; it’s always your choice to choose.

My child, you can only help a few and do the best that you can; that’s all you could do. The rest is up to them. We open those doors for them but it’s up to them to go through them. Remember, not everyone wants to learn and grow. It’s not easy for many of them to gain knowledge and wisdom because pride and ego gets in the way. Everyday of your life, you have faced the truth within you and within your journey. You know how difficult that was for you in the beginning and how angry you felt and how you didn’t want to deal with it.

Once you started to see the truth within yourself, you realized that life is painful and there is so much hurt within people and the world but you knew no matter how painful it was that you needed to face the truth; you didn’t want anything to cripple you. You started to realize that, that was the only way to live and be in peace with yourself. There were many nights you shed tears but you kept on fighting and never gave up, especially when you had every reason to. In the future, you became strong because you started to learn and to brace the world and the people in it.”

To be continued…